2009

i don't think you can have a shit year, i gurantee shit will happen but with the bad comes the good right? 2009 was another year of change, if someone told me before 2007 that things would going to change i wouldn't have believed them and i think the same goes for 2009. i think people have grown more as people, become slightly maturer and been able to handle situations alot more comfortably. minus the odd exception of course.
i want to finish this year with getting dressed up, going out with my friends and having too much to drink to forget about anything i've been upset about this year for one night and have fun.
i'm inevitably staying in with my family, i don't there for see the point in getting dressed up or even getting out of my trackies i've been wearing since christmas eve. i feel like i've lost a weeks' worth of sleep due to being ill or just staying up late 'because i can', either way if either of my parents wake me up with the reason being that i'm 'wasting the day' i'll scream in their face and go sleep and someone elses house.
end of rant, end of 2009, happy new years, make it a good one.

heroes die young.

R.I.P

Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan

avenged sevenfold could never be the same without him.

♥

writing about positive things is so cliche.

tell me where our time went, did we spend it well? my dear if it was with you i gurantee i'll remember well. you are mine and i am yours it was meant to be falling in love just the two of us for eternity, when i've had enough i'll let you down so carefully cos' nothing lasts forever if you're with me.

beauty is a thing of the mind

you can trick those lads into believing whatever they like, your bright red lipstick and your 'take me boys' written on your thighs. you walked on in here with all eyes upon you, you never regretted the fun.
you play your own games i play mine tonight and in the morning we'll be bright as rain and pretend that nothing ever happened just to do it again.

it's a new scene for you now there's no one to recognise, you can't believe who you're with or where your going tonight i can't look past your false pretentions or pathetic aspirations, i'm pretty godamn speechless how can you leave me this way.

my dear it's not that i'm the jelous type, i just can't stop myself from hating you sometimes i want to know what it's like to fall in love again but when you look me in the eyes i know this is pretend.

a week after queing up outside wembly for six hours for paramore, in the snow wearing shorts and tights i get a cold? it took you a fucking week to do this to me? and you decided to do it on christmas day, fucking brilliant.
i can't breathe through my nose, i'm constantly holding a cuppa tea in my hand and i'm pretty sure i look like i've just died. great, remind me to thank god for this wonderful christmas present he gave to me this year but i'd still que for a band. i never will learn.

it's now after so long that i realise that your best will never be good enough for anyone. being yourself is not the best you can do for someone, you can be anyone or anything you want to be if you just stop letting people getting in your way. you can try and say that "people's opinions don't matter" but they do, even if it's just a tiny bit, no one would be who they are today without the people they are surrounded with's judgement.
i'm sorry to break it to anyone who thinks, "i do everything for myself, not for other people" that's bullshit because you can't be that selfish and a good person at the same time. if your a dickhead, chances are you just don't care about the people around you or the people you hurt.